So this past week has been a real battle for me. On Sunday night, the Holy Spirit revealed to me that I was not placing my joy in Christ. I discovered that instead, I had placed my own self-love, my relationship, my family, my friends, the fact that I was finally almost done with college on the throne of my heart. Once I had made that discovery, I began to fight to surrender those things to God, and it wasn't easy, Sunday night, after praying with friends, I went to bed at peace, but immediately Monday morning, my heart was once again in turmoil. I couldn't find peace, and so I wrestled with God to surrender again, and wrestled, and wrestled. I was warring with God until Tuesday afternoon. Finally I gave in, I couldn't keep fighting anymore. I cried out for the strength to surrender, and He answered me. And from then till now and for the rest of my days, I can have peace and contentment, I can have joy in Christ, I can have rest, but only upon surrender of my will, my pleasure, my self-sourced joy. I must give it all up, nail it to the bloody cross I have been called to bear and find my joy in the only true source of joy, Jesus Christ. Through this battle, I decided to write a simple poem that expresses what I have been feeling. I hope that it can be a blessing to you as these truths have been for me.
Am I Not Enough
Clayton Campbell
See how I have made
you,
Am I not enough for
you?
See how I have known
you,
Am I not enough for
you?
See how I have chosen
you,
Am I not enough for
you?
See how I have loved
you,
Am I not enough for
you?
See how I have lived
for you,
Am I not enough for
you?
See I have suffered
for you,
Am I not enough for
you?
See I have bled for
you,
Am I not enough for
you?
See I have died for
you,
Am I not enough for
you?
See I have risen for
you,
Am I not enough for
you?
See I have forgiven
you,
Am I not enough for
you?
See I have protected
you,
Am I not enough for
you?
See I have prepared a
place for you,
Am I not enough for
you?
I see you have turned
away,
Am I not enough for
you?
I see you have loved
another,
Am I not enough for you?
I see you have worshiped another,
Am I not enough for
you?
My cross, my love, my
blood,
Am I not enough for
you?
One day you will
return and see,
I AM enough for you!
